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Is being at Georgia Tech really going to be worth the degree? I am so miserable down here it makes me want to cry and I feel like I am about to. I miss my old friends and I miss my family and I miss Eric. I wonder if it would have been different if I picked a different school. Tonight I finished my homework and have had nothing to do. I don't really have many friends down here, i'd say 2-Matt Matt and Danya and i just get so depressed lately being here and away from everything i love. When people ask me how tech is I put on my fake smile and say 'amazing' because no one wants to know that you are miserable, they want to think its great! Truth is Tech is rated the 2nd most unhappy college campus and i know why. I hate it, i really do. I have wondered so many times if being here is worth the degree and my happyness. i feel pathetic. i went from having best friends i could always call and count on to being scared to call in fear of being let down or them not answering or that we have grown too far apart to understand eachother. I feel like crying and throwing up I am so depressed and I miss my youth group and having a church to be plugged into. that was my friend base, my youth group and now i have nothing. i hate this and i wish eric had come to get me tonight because i hate being here, i would drive to classes everyday just to be living at home or with him. he is all i think about and i am not complete when he isnt near me, eric is my life and my soulmate and my entire support group. I don't like feeling this way and feeling weak but there is nothing I can do about it. I hate this so much. I wish i had gone to Clemson. What if I get out of tech and it means nothing? what if i do zoology in florida? what if i dont? i am making myself sick thinking off all of this. I just feel like the life i spent 18 years building has been destroyed in 6 months... my best friends are gone and may never come back. Do i join a sorority to make new friends? do i just hope that my classroom friendships grow into life long friends? I feel so depressed here and i dont want to be. and maybe everything will change and do a 180 but i doubt it, i dont see myself making friends like matt matt does or even how dale does. What would she be without the sorority? What am i? I wish I could look into a crystal ball and see how my life will turn out. Will it change? will i turn into a depressed person who hates being at tech? its not the classes they are challenging but I still have all A's I mean what is wrong with me? What about me has changed? i have pictures and notes all around my room to remind me of those that love me but, they are not here. i cant remember the last time i sat down and talked to kate-yeah once during winter break. What about nicole? kenzie? whitney? Eric means the world to me and is my world, i cannot imagine it without him and i hate being apart from him. I wish I could move in with him and drive in traffic to go to every class, he means that much to me. I love him i miss the past and i had a dream last week that ms. davis(my marketing teacher) told me not to come see her again until i could let go of the past and move on in my life and make new friends and forget about highschool. I didnt think about it or understand it until now. Everyone says college is the best time of your life and looking at other peoples pictures at different schools shows me that but to me it was highschool. My life has changed so much since school started and i have days where i want to cry and be as far away from tech as possible and then there are days i like it. Will this change or will i be battling with myself for the next 4 years? im just totally exhausted but i have so many thoughts racing through my head that I know i wont be able to fall asleep. It takes me atleast 40 minutes anyways when eric is not holding me... when he is.. less than 5. God I wish he came and got me tonight. well im gonna try to just cry myself to sleep, if i exhaust myself enough it may work, right? |
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OOO Looky here!! PS: THE GEORGIA AQUARIUM ROCKS!!! http://kevan.org/johari?name=HOLLY |
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 Im excited!!! Eric is gonna come down tonight and take me out to dinner =D On a school nite! hehehe. WELL HAPPY VDAY EVERYONE!! |
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| Every aspect of my life is going amazing right now. Everything with Eric is magic, I won my court case with Michael(and it was histerical!!), school is going really well, keeping in close contact with my family and some friends back home. I'll be working like crazy this weekend for my parents but, its gonna be a blast! And Eric and I will be booking our cruise this week!!(i think) so i am SUPER EXCITED!! Next weekend we have a date at the Aquarium and Fellinis(i havent been there but i hear it is amazing!) so im so happy. Im excited =) | ||||||
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Um tonight will be awesome! im gonna make spaghettios and a turkey sandwich... but thatd not why. My roomie is at a basketball game!! i have the room to myself and am going to take FULL advantage of that! I am planning on being uber productive! like tons of homework, im excited personally =) And today is hump day! meaning im half way to eric, which also makes me very excited!! we have a date Saturday night at the Atlanta Symphony that I am personally excited about and well... he doesnt know yet which will force him to be excited even if hes not right now =) im a great girlfriend haha I learned this in health today and loved it and the lecture was amazing so i am reposting it on here. By the way... did you know what college is 2nd most UNHAPPY University in the NATION??? GEORGIA TECH, wow that made me sad but I cant be because I am one of the few happy people here apparently haha. Ok.. 11 Characteristics Of Happy People!!! 1-Love Yourself 2-Love Other People 3-Believe You Are In Control Of Your Life 4-Be Optimistic 5-Focus On The World Outside of Yourself 6-Search For Meaning 7-Live One Day At A Time 8-Laugh & Smile A LOT 9-Avoid Self Defeating Behaviors 10-Take Time To Waste Time 11-Be Thankful Well time to be productive =D |
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wow too much has gone on... School ended up awesome last semester! I have a 3.5, but ofcourse I was pissed because I deserved an A in english and am meeting with my professor today to talk about it. Holidays were stressful. I work at Abercrombie & Fitch at the Mall of GA now, i like it, its fun but doesnt pay much. Eric and I are doing awesome! We had a shaky week not because of fighting (since we dont fight) but because we were majorly stressed. I didnt realize how hard my being at school and him at work was going to be. After winter break it has become sooo hard. I was with him the entire month and now its back to phone calls and messages and waiting for the weekends. Sundays and Mondays are the worst. It takes me almost an hour to fall asleep when Im not with him, and i hate waking up without him. I love him soo much! Its just hard. We got a puppy for Christmas that we adopted together for my Christmas present!! His name is Jasper and he's a miniture pincher and soo adorable!! I love my puppy! So last night I got caught up on all my school stuff other than reading! Which is impressive to me. I have been looking into spring break stuff.... and Eric and I are planning on a cruise but trying to pick which one and I think I found the perfect one last night! well there are 2 so its just picking now i guess. They are both 7 days and cost $500 and leave the same day. Cruise 1- Fort Lauderdale->Key West->Cozumel,Mexico->Sea->Ochos Rios,Jamaica->Grand Caymans,Bahamas->Sea->Fort Lauderdale Cruise 2- Fort Lauderdale->Sea->Puerto Rico(2days)->St. Thomas->Dominican Republic(2days)->Sea->Bahamas->Fort Lauderdale So its hard... lemme know which one you think. Well Im gonna go eat breakfast since I just woke up around 11:30! and then get ready for class! |
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47 MINUTES UNTIL MY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!! YAY! Sad thing is it really makes me miss home! Dale isnt here so I'll be waking up all by myself in the morning and then beginning a hectic day. 9am-wake up and get ready, go to barnes and nobles, print resume. 11am-psych 12-gt1000 1-chem 2-mom picks me up. drive to buford 4-Hollister interview 5-meet up with eric. So itll be stressful until about 430 when im going to try and take a nap before I see him. I miss mom alot. I miss Mike a lot too. This stinks. Today was a good day Presentation went well Meeting with Advisor went really well and I should have a lower fine and less harsh punishment Went to dinner with Dale and Matt Matt Got my resume done Got mom the cutest Christmas present ever! Made plans with Kate! Talked to Nicole Ate lunch with Kevin and caught up on the semester Only sad thing was Eric was on his way down to surprise me and turned around and went home because I had plans and he didnt want to mess them up. But all i want to do is see him so it was hard. I started crying tonight because i was so frusterated just because I miss him so much and I just want to see his face and be able to hug him. It was scary though, Ive never missed someone so much or had my feelings be this strong! But... i wouldnt give it up for the world! Ive been rethinking my career against working in a zoo. But it is based off of salaries and I dont like that. Eric says he would want me doing something that would make me happy not because of the pay check id be bringing home. So we'll see, im just scared because ive always had my life planned out and now it may be different than i had originally thought. So since Im not at home... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! =) Its been a crazy amazing year, and I hope I still have Eric standing next to me in a year =) cuz i dont want to lose him, he means so much to me. |
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This weekend was pretty crazy cuz i worked everyday, so i only saw Eric at night and in the morning when I was getting ready for work. I saw the Jobins saturday night at Red Lobster and talked to them about church, they are looking for a new one b/c they felt the church was going in a different direction than what they wanted. Les colored my hair again and now its a lot more red and a lot lighter! its fun though. Umm... My Birthday is next Friday!! Only 11 Days Away!! I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at 2:30 cuz I think I did something to my Achieles(sp?) tendon on the back of my ankle. So I'm kinda nervous but, Eric keeps telling me that it'll be fine. This week should be amazing! I get to go see Eric tomorrow and spend basically the week with him! We're going to his mom's for dinner Wednesday which will be fun but always makes me nervous =) But i'll just be happy to be with him. Even today I missed him so much and he sent me messages and wanted to come see me tonight which was cute cuz ill see him tomorrow after he gets off work. So i love seeing how much he misses me! He is awesome and I feel so lucky =D I LOVE YOU PUNK!! Wednesday Im gonna go to the Mall of GA and apply at a bunch of stores for a job over the winter break. Cuz i dont really want to work at the tanning bed and have to deal with that drama. Plus it would be closer to Eric and give me a discount =) hehe so wish me luck! Im SOOOO excited about Thanksgiving! Mom's gonna be cookin all morning and I'm gonna try to learn how to make a turkey! Mom's cooking is the best so Im excited about that!! Its weird though that I am more worried about thursday than I am about wednesday night because my dad will be at the house then.. and we still arent speaking. I tried talking to him this weekend because I am the bigger person in this situation and hes too ignorant and stubborn to forgive someone yet alone his own daughter. So him being there for me will just be awkward, but I will have mom and brian there and then I get to go be with Eric cuz im gonna face the mall friday!! Excited about that crazyness! Well Im gonna get some sleep and then my schedule for tomorrow is: 930-english class 11-pack for the week 215-doctors app 330-be home grab some sweaters and stuff 5-be at Erics 530-IHOP Rest of the night will just be my time to relax with my baby! Oh yeah, did I mention that GA Tech beat #3Miami this weekend?? hell yea! Hope we'll do it again this weekend against UGA! |
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I think my least favorite time of the week is Sunday night and then Monday morning.. because it is the furthest away from eric that i can be, i miss falling asleep next to him and just being able to be near him. He picked me up Friday and we went to IHOP, Saturday we went to Year One's car show to pass out fliers and then out to lunch with his family (which went really well) and then grocery shopping =) And then today we played tetris and took a nap and then did our weekend ritual or Chilis and a movie, heh. My feelings for Eric keep getting stronger every day and that to me is the magic of it all. He keeps me so grounded and calm when I am stressed out and just helps me stay focused on all my school work and he thinks I can do it, like he beliefs in me that I can make it through Tech and do great. I love that about him! He is just amazing, I hate being away from him but I know he's always there for me whether I need someone to whine, cry, or tell a joke to. I can't believe I found him and it is this amazing but, I am just scared that something will happen and it scares me that we're together so young (well im 18--ALMOST 19!! and he's 25) But some people live their whole life and never find the type of love that just makes you want to climb a mountain and scream you are in love and that makes you feel like you can do anything you want to. It's awesome I finally talked to Lesley Friday and she understood how I was feeling and why I was so upset with her about everything that happened with my 'dad.' So me, her, brian, and then eric & boogs are all going to a concert friday and I think that will be fun. This week should be good because I dont have as much to do as last weekend... Speaking of last weekend__80 on psych test and 87 on chem test!!! Awesome! Onto 'dad' he is going through a power trip and doesnt want me working bar this weekend which bothered me but its fine cuz i'll just do tickets for mom. I called and asked him to work and part of me wishes that I hadnt even tried to make the first effort with him and the other part of me is glad because its just another exmple of how im the bigger person of the two. Friday I saw him at the building and neither one of us said hi, im glad because i didnt want him to come up to me and give me a fake hug because I probably would have told him to 'go to hell'. Im sick of him acting like a father in front of people and I dont like him bragging/mentioning me being at Tech because i know he could care less that i worked my ass off for 4 years to get here. And i will work my butt off for another 4 or 5 to graduate from Georgia Tech!! Will he be there? doubt it.. does that bother me? not one bit. Im done Ive realized that me and him will never have a relationship if he stays this heartless but its fine. i have so many other great male rolemodels that it doesnt bother me and I would be honored if my brothers could walk me down the aisle of my wedding. Both Brian and Mike are great support and I know they would do anything for anyone in our family. I think I have become a lot closer to all my siblings in the past year and I am so greatful for that. So if you guys are reading this... I Love You! Thank you for everything you have ever done and every lesson you have ever taught me. I appreciate everything you are the best brothers, love you! I know I can always count on you. heh, speaking of my awesome boyfriend.. he just called me, went to bed like an hour ago, and just called because he missed me and couldnt sleep without me there =D adorable? i think so. *The song playing is one that played a dream he had where me and him were at the beach together just slow dancing to this song, said its the best dream he's ever had* =) well im gonna do some psych homework and get to bed... |
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I think its funny that me, kate, and kenzie all got the same thing! love u girls!!
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So this past week has been weird. Everything with Eric is magic. Umm Thursday night was rough cuz I had to go out with Dale and was the only sober person there and walked home by myself at 330am.. but, i called mike and that was good. i talked to him alot last week and it was good to catch up with him. Umm I havent talked to dad but, i waved at him when i drove by him and rhonda and got no response... called Lesley tonight and have yet to hear back from her. So that sucks. Ok so my bank statement and my quicken for that account are way off and ive been stressing trying to figure it all out. This Week is going to be soo hard and Im already freaking out about it... Monday(tomorrow!) 9:30am-meeting w/office of student integrity 11am-psychology test-last before final 6pm-pre lab quiz 7pm-lab report due (have not started) write my paper (no clue on topic) Tuesday 9:30-turn in paper rough draft Wednesday 7pm-have chem self test done Thursday 9:30am-turn in final paper Friday 12-Turn in project on major 1-Chem homework due 1-last Chemistry test before final So this is my most stressful weekend of the entire semester. Not to mention I have psychology homework due next monday. awesome. Eric may come down one night and calm me down and surprise me which would be great. Everything with him is awesome and he helps keep me calm and grounded. He was trying to tonight and told me not to stress out about stuff that isnt important and then called me back and said "did i tell you that i love you? because i love you nerd and i miss you like crazy" That kinda stuff helps sooo much when ur freaking out. called mom too and she told me to focus on chemistry for tomorrow. But im soo worried about that psych test. My desk is an absolute mess and i cant accomplish anything until my desk and floor is clean or it will bother me the whole time. i havea feeling i will end up crying this week because i wont know what to do. Another thing to make me mad... MAtt Matt... yeah we were trying to get together for dinner one night a week to catch up on everything.. so tuesday we were going to go to the mall... he leaves without telling me (had a voicemail saying call me not hey im gone!) then i call him thursday morning to wake him up for a test and he reassures me that we'd get together and he wouldnt back down.. Thursday 8pm-im starving and call him no answer and STILL havent heard from him!!! So he went to see his gf and apparentl doesnt care enough to call me back. Reminds me of why i was mad at him in the beginning of the semester? yeah 2 weeks till Thanksgiving and like a month until Christmas Break!! THANK GOD!!! Im so lucky to have Eric because he can keep me calm and focused. He is so awesome! We saw Saw2 this weekend, OMG scary as crap! I hate Sunday nights when I have to leave him. i get so used to sleeping next to him friday and saturday that it sucks not being able to fall asleep in his arms. Wish i could do that every night! I miss him so much already. Well im gonna go to bed and study for psych in the morning... wish me luck... better yet, pray for me! Night |
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Friday night started out horribly with the party at the building. it wasnt big which made me happy cuz i didnt think it would be. Well i got into a huge fight with my dad and then my sister. Dad had some of his little girls working and it pissed me off because one of them made a comment about mom and i was about 3 seconds from hopping over the counter and decking her in the face. Well Lesley tells dad im in a pissy mood after i had gotten over it and so then she convienitenly (sp?) gets on her phone and leaves me there with him and the first thing he says to me is "I havent slept with any of these girls" EXCUSE ME!!! Yeah ur my fucking father, i dont want to hear that, thats gross as crap. So I go off and start screaming at him, he tells me to grow up (umm are u kidding?) and then walks off as i yell "Ur not my dad ur my fucking boss!" and i turn around call Les a bitch and walk off... run off to moms office and break down balling. Everyone else is worried about me except the two heartless assholes...aka les and dad. I should have seen it coming, i mean ive only been there to support her through EVERYthing she has ever done.. and what happens? I get stabbed in the front by her and she could care less.. dad ive never expected much from considering all he cares about is himself and money, and lesley is turning the same way. So i talk to zeke who calms me down and then mom drives me back down to school. I havent cried that much in a long time. Well Eric calls me back and i talked to him until i calmed down enough where i could crawl into bed. So i did and was just so exhausted that i fell right asleep. Saturday i wake up and am so upset about everything that happened i decided that id take it out on myself for the rest of the day. So I went to the game which was kinda fun but i didnt want to be there. i wanted to be at home or with eric. Well he was supposed to come see me after he left south carolina and then calls and says hes too tired and he is just going to go home and sleep. so i go out to sigma chi with dale, hillary, and hannah for the halloween party. And I got completely trashed. I took over twenty different shots (my limit is like 5 or 6) so i walk down the street to Delt and saw cy and everyone else. I have pictures there that i dont remember taking. I lost my tail, went back to get it (i was a cat) and then Tareef walks me back. I sit down and throw up, Cy sees me and brings me back the rest of the way. And I threw up the rest of the night with Cy and Erika taking care of me. I dont remember much of that either. I climbed into bed and went to sleep. Hell part 2. Sunday morning i wake up to Eric calling me saying hes on his way. I feel like shit ran over twice and stumble around cleaning and wash my face. So he comes down and we didnt really talk. In the car he told me not to tell him that i dont remember what happened cuz that scares him. So we got back to his apartment and he made me breakfast and i slept for like 3 hours. Woke up and showered and felt better but the whole day was awkward. Like we werent talking like normal and we went to dinner and still nothing... I just figure hes mad about me getting drunk. Well later that night he wasnt feeling good and so i was laying next to him about to fall asleep cuz i was exhausted and i was trying to calm him down so hed stop thinking about how bad he felt. And he sits up and tells me that im going to be mad... he lied to me the entire weekend, said he never went to south carolina. he just wanted to be by himself cuz he was getting scared because we were getting too close. So instead of telling me he wanted some time apart bc he didnt know how to tell me he just lied and did that. and said he was sorry like a hundred times. He said he realized how much he missed me and it was so hard to lie to me and that he realized im the only one he wants to be with and said "I love you" for the first time. So that was awesome. And ive realized now i need to move past the whole lieing thing because he feels horrible about it and if he really loves me and we are supposed to be together then we'll make it work. I just need to get over it and see how much he cared for me in order to do this and tell me the truth. So this week will be a rebuilding week. Im not going to worry about dad and lesley. Im not going to be drinking again because all it does is cause more problems. Eric and I will be fine and continue having everything go amazing because I am in love with an incredible man. School will continue going better. And now i am going to go eat, go to class, clean my dorm room, and do homework. Im sorry this weekend happened and that I let my dad influence me that much where it snowballed and ruined my entire weekend... but it wont ruin my life. So im gonna go be productive and go from here. Cya |
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1. Open up the music player on your computer. 2. Set it to play your entire music collection. 3. Hit the shuffle command. 4. Tell us the title of the next 20 songs that show up (with their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That's right, no skipping that Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It's time for total musical honesty. 5. If you get the same artist twice, you may skip the second (or third, or etc.) occurrences. You don't have to, but since randomness could mean you end up with a list of ten song with five artists, you can if you'd like. 1- Cher - Its In His Kiss 2- The All American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret 3- Garth Brooks - If Tomorrow Never Comes 4- Dead or Alive - You Spin Me Right Around 5- Matchbox 20 - The Most Beautiful Girl 6- Avril lavigne - Together 7- Akon - Belly Dancer 8- Dave Matthews Band - Crash Into Me 9- Butch Walker - Take Tomorrow (One Day At A Time) 10- Keith Urban - Better Life 11- Sarah McLachlan - Angel 12- Big & Rich - Big Time 13- Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl 14- Linkin Park - Crawling 15- Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes 16- Britney Spears - Crazy 17- Def Leopard - Pour Some Sugar On Me 18- Blake Shelton - Some Beach 19- Faith Hill - The Way You Love Me 20- TI - Bring Em Out Linkin Park repeated 3 times, all american rejects twice haha awesome |
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so this is just crazy. my feelings for eric are growing stronger every single day. I met him up at Camping Time saturday night and he and Steve were workin on his car. So we all came back to his apartment and just chilled and then Eric and I went to DQ and came back and watched movies. Sunday we got up and he went out and brought me breakfast while I was still asleep and then we went to his mom's house for lunch. Met his family and talked to his mom forever =). Afterwards we ended up driving to Helen =) and walked around for a little bit and took an adorable picture and headed back and got dinner at Chilis and then went and saw Matthew Machonahey ((spelling is WAY off))'s new movie Two For The Money, it was good but really long. And then came back and watched tv and went to bed. Monday morning he woke me up and asked me where my car keys were... turns out he called into work 'sick' so that we could spend the day together!!! So that was really sweet. We went to IHOP around noon to go get breakfast and then played tetris and laid around the apartment before running some errands. And then this morning was sad cuz i woke up to him kissing me goodvye before he went off to work. But he left me a sweet note and came back to take me to lunch. It sucked having to leave him and neither one of us wanted me to. So I left some cute little notes all around his apartment. and he just called me =). It sucks cuz mom wanted me to come home to see her and ive been here for like 2 hours and nobody is even here which STINKS!!! All I want to do is stay in his arms.. We had never spent 3 days/nights together so when we were talkin after lunch he was like "i dont want you to go" me-"but i thought three days was the maximum?" him-"nope, i changed it in the contract." me-"Oh really? To what?" him-"Forever, every day, every night." awww =) its soo cute when he says sweet stuff. I just want to drive back up there and stay with him. Im falling in love and all i want to do is tell him that but im trying to wait for him first. But i know he cares about me and likes me a lot. Im the first girl hes brought around his family in years and i met his best friend and his girlfriend (his old roomates) this weekend. Gahh!! I MISS HIM!!! Lesley and i went to this big Halloween store and got me a costume. I was gonna be a lady bug originally... then when i tried stuff on i was gonna be the sexy mail girl... then i tried on the 'cat'. its hot. yeah the dressing room guy definitely approved haha. so im gonna be running like crazy to make sure it looks hot. Its a short pink dress with a tail, bell collar, and some little ears. its gonna be crazy i love it! well im gonna do something.. i dunno what haha. i wish i could zap myself up to Oakwood to be with him right now. Im goin back to Tech tonight and hopefully mom will come get me after chem tomorrow. i think shes worried about me spending the night with eric so much but she shouldnt be. I just love going to sleep with someone holding you who cares about you so much. Oh! The other night i woke up from a bad dream and was almost in tears, he woke up and when i told him i had a bad dream he just held me closer and kissed me until i calmed down and fell back asleep. I thought that was soo sweet of him. But anyways, hopefully i can go back up there and see him tomorrow night and then be back home thursday morning or after lunch... its gonna be great having 5 classes this week! im not gonna get to see him this weekend which is gonna suck |
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guess who has dark auburn red hair!!!! =D And I love it!!! PS_ I FINALLY get to see Eric tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! |
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I got an A on my psychology test!!!! Heck ya!! This weekend is our fall break so im off monday and tuesday. my chem workshop is cancelled for wednesday night and i have no classes on thursday!! Wow next week will be beautiful!! Im excited =D Get to spend a lot of time with Eric this weekend which is always a plus eventhough i wont be able to see him till like 9pm Saturday. I miss that little punk!! AWESOME DAY!! Now im gonna do some chem... |
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Well everything is just continuing to get better and better with Eric. Like Im definitely falling for him. We went to a braves game this weekend, it was so much fun! He met Dale and Kate & Nicole & Rhonda this weekend so that was good and they all approved. I have so much fun when i am with him and just cannot stop smiling. Like i smile just thinking about him or looking at a picture of us. Im gonna try and go up friday so im there when he gets off work and cook him dinner and then we can hopefully finally make muffins this weekend haha. So i cant wait to see him again. 4 more days!! I dont like that his friends all keep telling him to date someone during the week, but i do like that he tells them all no and i know he wouldnt do that to me. Every time i talk to him he just tells me how much it sucks and how he wants to see me. Like we spent all weekend together and still talked for like an hour last night after he dropped me off =) i love that. he is just so amazing and i am glad it is all working out. if we can make it through this year with me not having a car then i think the next 4 years would be easy. Its crazy but i really am seeing this be a long term relationship. He still can always make me smile or laugh when i talk to him and is just so great to me, i love it. i just want to be back in his arms again, holding his hand when we drive. its cute, he drives a 5speed but he'll try to do it with his left hand instead of letting go of mine. But he has been changing soo much for the better lately and it is soo amazing. I miss him constantly it is crazy. so yeah. i am finally happy =D my chem test was graded wrong so i should have a lot better of a grade now which will be great! my school stuff is all coming together nicely. Im not going out and partying like at all especially compared to the first few weeks of school, which is good because i dont need the pressure of drinking right now. So thats a plus. My mom is coming down tomorrow night for dinner!! so im excited about that! canr wait. and nicole and kenzie are hopefully coming down on thursday. but now im gonna go to bed so i can wake up and go get a waffle for breakfast before class tomorrow!! im excited =) |
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First off... I DROPPED CALCULUS!!! WOO!! Party it up for that! And i have a meeting Thursday to switch my major to Business Management! Awesome! Friday i went out with Dale, Hillary, and Hannah to Sigma Chi for a band party and then I went over to TKE with some girls. That was fun. Ran into one of my PLs there which was pretty cool talking to her outside of class. And then i walked back to west with this girl Katie. Well friday was full of drama, my roomate and her bf broke up and my sisters car broke down which wasnt good. so a lot happened and i went out with them bc eric was messing with his car and he couldnt get it to work, he had a loose sensor it turned out. So that sucked cuz i wanted to see him. So then saturday morning he called and said he was going to NOPI with some of his guys and he'd pick me up on the way home. Turns outbthey left early and he was sad the whole day because i wasnt there and like hardly talked to themor looked at anything. So he picked me up and came home and then me and him went out to Chilis and went grocery shopping =D haha. Sunday morning i woke him up at like 10 and we went to IHOP for breakfast and then came home and got ready and went to see "Lord of War" with Nicholas Cage and then went to O'Charleys for dinner and went and played putt putt. The whole weekend we had been talking so much shit about who was going to win at putt putt... yeah he beat me by 4! But have no fear! There will be a rematch!! haha. So we came back home and watched some tv and just laid around until we decided he had to take me back at like 11pm... so he dropped me off and it was sad. Neither one of us wanted to leave but we had to. He called me and told me he already missed me =) it was soo cute. He really is an awesome guy, so sweet and funny, always holds the door for me, and i am jut so happy when i am around him. so it was sad leaving him. he might come down tonight for dinner but, i doubt it. otherwise ill see him saturday after work!! whatta punk haha his ring tone is "im too sexy" for when he calls me haha awesome!! well im off to shower just incase and then im gonna start on some homework!! fun stuff PS- My roomie kicks ass. I love her, she's soo fun! =) |
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So thursday i bombed my first calculus test which was horrible. im going to get a tutor this week and if i still don't get it i will go talk to my profesor and drop the class, which would really free up my schedule.. So i walked out of there and started crying cuz it was horrible, i got a hold of lesley on the phone and she was trying to make me feel better (and she always does) and she had mom come get me for dinner after i went and ran like 4 miles. So we all went out to mexican and then me and her went to publix and got groceries. I seriously have the best sister in the world! i love her like crazy! well mom brought me back down and then me. and i didnt go out that night which was for the best. umm i talked to eric a bunch and we have both been missing each other like crazy. So on friday on my way to the delt house i called him and talked to him for like 30 minutes and i wanted him to come see me saturday. so i called him again on saturday and he wasnt sure if he could because he still has no energy (yeah he is hypoglycemic, poor baby) and he called me later for directions =D absolutely made my night right there!! so he drove down and looked absolutely adorable and helped me carry all my stuff and i wanted him to meet mom, so i was slick and was like "would i be able to have you stop by my house really quick" and he said that was fine and he didnt care, so when we finally got out of atlanta after being lost he came home with me and mom loved him and just thought he was cute and nice and just awesome... which he is =D and then we headed up to his apartment. Some guy in a honda pulled up next to us trying to race him which was funny, cuz eric has an eclipse and when u let off the clutch it makes a 'booster' noise its cute. so we got up to gainesville and jut watched tv and i fell asleep with him holding me on the couch =) and he woke me up and we went to bed. I love it, if he wakes up in the middle of the night or i do, he'll just pull me closer to him and i fall right back asleep. and this morning he was like "you know at night, you start to breath out of your mouth when u first fall asleep" which reminds me of that "wait for the boy" quote because it says wait for the boy that stays awake just to watch you sleep. and he does that, he never falls asleep first. and he actually got a lot of sleep which is a good sign cuz last time he was soo sick he kept waking up every 10 minutes. so we woke up around 11... well he apparently woke up at 9 and then 1030 but we didnt really get up until about 12. and we went to Bojangles and got breakfast and came back and watched some movies. and same as last time neither of us wanted me to leave for work. he is such a big kid i love it, he like pushed me of the couch and so i had to beat him up (haha yeah maybe i didnt really win but still) and we just hung around and i took a shower and got ready for work and he dropped me off. he asked who was taking me back down and now he regrets letting her and not driving back down to come get me =) he called me around 7 when i was working and we talked for a while and he mised me already which was cute cuz i started missing him the moment he pulled away... and so i told him id call him back later. so mom picked me up and brought me back down cuz the concert/rodeo at the building was dead and they didnt need me anymore. and he called me while i was doing homework and thats when he said he wished he had driven me back. like before we left i laid on his bed while he was getting ready and so i made the pillow smell like me =) so he was all sad that im down here and not there to cuddle and i miss him.. my teddy bear is not the same, hehe. wow im falling hard for him, and it's amazing. he's soo great. I think he is coming down after work Tuesday to go to dinner with my family for Lesleys birthday which would be awesome cuz he could meet Les & the Boogs. and we must have their approval. I didnt realize ive been seeing him for a month and a half, it has just flown by. its an awesome feeling. im cutting back on the drinking major big time because i had done it again since ive been down here, and i realized AGAIN that it isnt worth it and i dont want to mess anything up with him or anyone else, including myself. So i probably wont go out this week until saturday for the game and i think im just going to trick everyone with my bottle of juice by telling them something is in it because they dont know any better and i wont have to deal with it. umm i might go with him to NOPI this weekend, thatd be really fun. i want him to come to a game with me sometime, thatd be soo much fun! but im willing to miss one to see him longer =) yeah its crazy but im lovin it. so im off to bed so i can get up early. miss u baby!! |
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depressed.
bouncy.
happy.
hungry.
cold.
loved.
busy.
stressed.
drained.
bored.